Monday, March 14, 2011

Letting Go

I am almost 40 years old and have been in love with Jesus for 20 years, yet it seems I am just now learning to "let go".   Relationships can be tricky.  One thing is for sure, relationships are hard, at times.  I have hung on for way too long with some relationships, hoping they could be more.  God has never given me freedom to give up, but now He has brought me to a place of just letting go.  Letting go of expectations.  Letting go of emotional turmoil.  Finally, I am free.

The enemy  knows our weaknesses and he is ruthless in attacking us.  One of the deepest hurts I have received from a relationship that should have been one of trust and security, is deception.  I have been deceived over and over, as this person tells you only what they want to you know.   Often, it has been crushing, as I should have been able to trust this person most in this world.  The enemy has been mean and has even used friendships to attack me in this area, because  he knows I have been damaged by deception and lack of trust.

Friends will disappoint and that is ok.  We are human. We will fail.  But deception in a relationship is harmful.   I  believe, based on God's word, that a true friend will not deceive  you.   I have to trust this and freely  let go when I learn deception is involved.  This is from the enemy, intended to harm and is not of God.

 I know that God will give me what I need!  The enemy has come to steal, kill and destroy.  He uses our weaknesses to try to bring us down.  I will NOT lay down!

Praise God that I can recognize the enemy for what he is....and I will not believe his lies.  I will pray for wisdom and discernment in relationships.  God is so faithful to warn us, as he had warned me....but I must learn to listen and trust His voice in these things.

"My God will supply all your needs according to His riches in glory in Christ Jesus"  Phillipians 4:19

He cares for me! I will follow Him with reckless abandon.  He is ENOUGH.


jana said...

Thanks for sharing your heart. I love and appreciate you.

Anonymous said...

Monica-you are so right.It is extremely disappointing when an expectation of what you thought was in a friendship is not there. It is freeing though to let those friendships go. I know it is hard though.

It is possible that in time you two will be able to work through this, and your friendship will be stronger than before.

Lis said...

True friendship stands the test of time.. Thank you for sharing your heart, it means a lot to me.

Rachel said...

Wonderful post.

Praying that you can continue to rest and sink in our Father.